swear to shake it up, if you swear to listen.

Oh god.
Ive never done this before.
Really.
At first.
It was soooooo nakakainis.
Because.
our first froggy, Poot died.
Shit it was depressing.
Cos he (or she) was like my first pet ever.
(disecting pet atleast)
I was xsited having poot.
even if poot was kind of gross.
really gross.

Enough.

enough.

Enough.

Lets go to the fun part.

brutality.
hey hey hey hey.

so.
it was like this.
first.
kelangan ko alisin ang frog dun sa garapon.
it wasnt easy i tell you.
enden.
der na.
wen my parter pam got to grab it.
i tusok the pointy churva in his back going to the mouth.
tapos.
un na.
I felt the brutality in my veins.
Then it all starts there.
First.
We removed the skin( epithelial tissue in for the nerds)
in order to remove the skin.
We cutted a hole in th frogs neck.
The muscle should stay.
Tpos there na.
Wala na ung skin.
(imagine nio nlng un chicken na walng skin)
tpos we need to cut again the muscle tissue in orde to see the inner parts.
nung nicut na nmen.
Syet.
We saw the lungs.
(dab ung frog pag nahinga lumalaki.)
Un.
we saw that.
It was huge.
Then un na.
We saw the heart.
Tpos nung ntpos na un nippgwa smen.
Medyo npansin ko ung EYES.
Sbe ku.
Gusto dukutin un mata.
It wasnt easy
kse dba.
Pg tinutusok ko ung mata.
Pumikit.
So what i did is.
Binuksan ko un bibig.
(nilaro ko muna)
Tpos un.
dun ko tinulak palabas ung mata.
Then there.
My classmates started to notice me.
So nagpasikat ako.
Kinarir ko na.
Back to the eyes.
Un.
I still cant get it.
So nadurog ung eyes.
bla bal bla

e i d un.
I got bored.
So i proceeded to the next kokak.
So this is where the fun really starts.
Swear.

Di un.
Una tinadtad ko ng tusok ung hita.
Tps nitusok ko ung pwet
(may pwet b un)
den i got violent.
KInamay ko nalang.
regardless of the langsa.
tpos.
i pulled all the organs:
liver
gall bladder
stomach
inestine.
churca
churca.
then.
all my friends was like
ewwwwwwwww!
they were a bunch of crap.
the i saw like the spinal cord.
then i tossed the arms and legs.
to patrick(the class gay)
then i finally got what i wanted.
the eye.
it was like achievement.
then.
all of them were like ewwww.
then all i can do i laugh like a mad scientist.
fun.
fun.
fun.

WARNING ABOUT SELF-MUTILATION

.…before
you make that first cut remember. You will enjoy this. You will find
the blood and pain release ADDICTIVE.. Even though you think you can
make a few tiny cuts that aren’t deep and will heal easily …they will
get deeper. They will scar. They will take sometimes months to heal!!!
And years for the scars to fade! IF you think you can limit the cutting
to one area of your body think again…it will spread when you run out
of skin. Be prepared to withdraw from others and live in a constant
state of shame. Even if you are the most honest person ever to live
….you will find yourself lying to the people you love.  You will jerk
back from your friends when they touch you as if their hands were
dipped in poison. You will be terrified that they will feel something
under the cloth of your shirt or because it just plain hurts so much to
be touched.

Be
prepared to get so out of control you fear your next cut because you
don’t know how bad it will be. Just wait for 10 cuts to turn into
100….Be prepared for your entire life to revolve around thinking
about cutting…Cutting and covering up cutting And just wait till that
first time you cut "too deep." And you freak out because the blood
won’t stop…and you are gaping….and you feel yourself shaking all
over. You are having a panic attack and you are terrified but you can’t
tell anyone. So you sit there alone…praying it will be ok swearing
you’ll never let it go this far again…But you will and further. Don’t
worry, you will learn how to take care of your cuts so that you can go
deeper and deeper and avoid the ER. And the better you get at treating
your cuts the deeper they get.

You
will lie to yourself and justify it when you find yourself spending 20,
30 or 50 dollars every time you go the pharmacy. You will feel the
flutter of your heartbeat every time you go to the counter to ring up
your order. Butterfly strips…3 or four different kinds of
dressings…betadine….antibiotic cream. Medical tape. scar
reducers…..You will tap your foot impatiently hoping the line will
just move and no one will stare at you or wonder why you need all these
things. And at the same time secretly hope someone will
notice…someone who is standing in line with an armful of the same
supplies…someone who understands but of course that never happens.

Medical
supplies won’t be the only thing you spend all your money on. Be
prepared to buy a new wardrobe…long-sleeved shirts in summer colors,
bracelets, wristbands, boots… gloves. the list goes on and on.

You
will start looking at everyone in a differnent way…Scanning their
bodies for any signs of SI… just hoping that you might meet someone
like you so you don’t feel so terribly alone. You wont even think about
it..As your eyes scan their wrists arms…hoping just hoping they will
be like you….But they are not. You will see their clean arms and feel
terribly ashamed and alone.

You
will start doing a lot of things alone. You will always have to wash
your laundry in private so know one sees the blood stains on your
clothes and towels. You will always be cleaning up the blood. Scrubbing
your bathroom floor…wiping the blood of your keyboard….

You
won’t be able to make it through a day without cutting….Next thing
you know you are in a public bathroom somewhere breaking open a scab
with a sewing needle that you keep in your wallet for emergancies. When
you get really desperate anything will be a cutting tool
…scissors…a car key…a needle … a paperclip. even a pen. Doesn’t
matter what it is if you need to cut bad enough you will find something.

Say goodbye to things you took for granted. Like wearing shorts or sandals…pedicures…sleeveless tops.

A normal summer day at the beach or in a swimming pool will become a far off memory for you.

Get ready to itch. Beacuase you will itch and itch …"so much you will look like you have fleas or a skin disease."

You
will become an expert on your body as you destroy it carefully.. You
will dream about cutting…you will dream about being exposed.  It will
haunt you day and night and take over your life. You will wish you
never made that first cut because while you absolutely HATE
cutting…at the same time you love it and can not live with out of it.

you have been warned…..

(i
do not take credit for this powerful message. i just posted it here so
everyone who reads my blog will be aware. if you are in this situation,
think about the consequences.)

CREDITS TO: paula.

wahahaha…

ehehehehe…

wakekek..

ang saya saya..

wee nmn dba//

tinaksan  namin si Sir Ralph..

wauhuuhuhhu..

putek nmn kse,,

gan2 xe un//

kelangan namin ( aq chka c arianne) pumunta kei sr. ralph

xe nga prayer leader kmi sa tuesday

di un,,

pumunta kming nla pam kei sr..

putek anboring..

di isa isa hbang mei kausap c sr..

tumakas kmi

uno, dos , tres,

una c pam,,, tpos aq nmn.. tpos c yani//

di un 2wang 2wa kmi..

e dun pla kmi dadaan,, di prang pelikula.. mei kaausap kla sr tpos ttakbo kmi..,,

SUCCESS

but w8,,

di pla aq dun ddaan

tpos pra kming tanga..

dhaan dhan prang mga spies,, prAng c james bond…eheheheh

tpos todo …

SUCCESS n tlga…

…end of message..

un,,
ders dis guy at skuL i reaLLy Lyk..
di ko nGa Lam kung why i Lyk him
Di nmN xa GwaPo//
BunGi Pa,,
Mas MtinO p nga Un mGa pAst kO eh..
di Ko nmN pweDe sBiHin n gus2 ko xa DhiL mbAit xa,,
know WhY,,,
Coz he DoesnT eVeN knOw mE..
HwuAHH..
HopeLess RomAnTic 2 TOL..
baCK 2 Him,,
Di rin xa MtALinO as i oBseRvEd,,
di Xa mGaLing mGALinG mgDrawinG which is ,,
isa s mGA faCtoRs n gUs2 ko s Guy,,
pRo inFareness GLinG xa Mg GuiTara,,
tPos ng BabOunce  pa Un hAiR n pWedeNg PAng ComericaL niA,,
/pRo iNiwasAn na Nia AKo..
hUhUHUH
kSi gAn2 uN..
Un uNA nGA ay siMpLeng PAkiLAlA Lng,,
e di ako mHanAp nUng bOy n cLassmeiT ko,,
kYa nunG ngkaMisa,,
sBi nia uy——Mei Crush SAu 2..
gOSh !!
Most emBArasing tyM ko un,,
tPos iNAasar pa akO nung babuy niaNg frend,,
1 tym dumaan ako s hRAp nlA cbi nuNg frenD nia:
My nAMe is—-and i am Neat
2nd tym:
My name is Barvi ANd iam nEAt
TApos uMikOt nlng aKO,,
s ibanG wei n mLyo
3rd unxpEcted tYm:
Nice v..

why,, why,, oh why,,
but LuckY me,,

mei 2 GwapOng freNdShiP n nGpapaSya s Umaga KO,,
in da Moring UN tataY ko
In tHe nIgHT c WeBB
KunG wLA cLa mTagaL n GumUhU UnG mUndo ko S mGa BoYS…
Boys break my fucking heart so id better break their fucking necks!!

weLL………Lyk i SeD iBa n tLga pG meY mHAL….

HiNdi xA yAn………kMuka LnG nYa….

muKA nYAng kaMbaL yuN……

prhO pNG nkasaLamin……

baCk 2 DA tOpiC,,,,,,,

xmPre pG mhaL mO…….

kHit mHiraP ggWin mO Ksi aLAM mOng yUn anG iKakAsiYa nya

Khit mSaKit gGwin mO ksi GustO nYA……

LhaT ggWin mO pRA Lng mPAngiTi xa KhiT pA aNg kPaLiT anG kAsiYAhan mO…

=(

eLow!!
anu b yan la kow mgawa…..
kya nga mgbabakasyon n kow s kainta eh!!!

Coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss
It was only a kiss

(repeat)

mGa FrEndz kOw S mTs !!! MiSs KoW n KyO!!

LALo N UnG MgA 6-b!!!